Neil it will soon be seven months that you are gone and I still walk into our house expecting to see you sitting in your blue chair and listening to the news or watching the stock market. Some days I’m even guilty of opening the front door and calling your name until a moment passes and I remember you are not here. I still talk with you every day and I still cry over losing you but I am so grateful that cancer cannot take anything further from you and that you can be at peace from it. You once said that if anything happened to you that I would be able to go on because I am a relatively strong woman and essentially I have gone on just not as strong and not as sound as when you were here. I miss my Neiler. I hope you watch over me anf Jaycie and I hope you can feel our love coming thru and hear us when we talk to you. You are so very much missed Neiler and please don’t even look at our check registry cause I still can’t balance the thing like you always did but then again I’m ok with that. You had to know that was going to happen right? Love you Neil. Keep showing us signs that you are with us.